So It Is

Firstly, I am a young (23) petite female. This is about my current journey that is now in full swing and has been in the making for years. To find and explore my sexual self. So I may seek out the full potential, to dare and go beyond my normal comfort zone. That icky normalcy that is so easy to slip into and stay in, because at the time it was easier to stick to that safe, boring side then to be bold and admit that which society has rejected. That I am a sexual creature with wants and needs. Getting to that point, to confess that, accept that openly, has taken a while. I have known for a long time that I have not so ‘vanilla’ tendencies, how much and where it goes I have yet to sort out. I’ve been pretty certain that I’m a sub, while I have had a few mind blowing moments, I have not unearthed it fully.

After a long dull marriage I have a new, amazing, tall, hot, blue eyed, spicy, somewhat older man in my life. We’ve yet to find the groove of the relationship as it’s so new, but you can feel the chemistry from across the room. It’s almost visible, it’s animal, it drives us nuts! This is what has been missing from my life. He is the full package, has his head on his shoulders, he’s driven, finds the fun in most things, he’s kind, he knows how to treat people. Even when he’s stressed or upset he still stays down to earth, doesn’t get loud or angry, this is a huge asset in my eyes, it says so much about him.

He has a kink to him as well and he talks about various things, in our texting back and forth he can quite easily make my jaw drop. This is fantastic. We’ve yet to carry much of it over to when we’re actually together but it gets better each time.

I am excited and cautious, I do not know where this will lead, he’s aware of this too and rather eager. I’ve been terribly frank with him and I refuse to be otherwise. I think this is a great thing. I want to continue at this pace, this blog will encourage me more.

Let’s Begin!

-Zade